I never thought I would be talking about this topic...
But here I am.
Not more than a year ago, I made the connection in therapy that why I always felt sex was hollow was that I felt it should be a spiritual connection between two souls - an opportunity for two beings to be present, in the moment, in the now, not worried about the past or the future, and together to touch the face of God. THAT was the type of sex I wanted to experience and rarely if ever touched. Instead, it has always felt transactional... that so much is focused on the destination of "climax"...
When I was channeling today, I asked about this - because I wasn't clear if "climax" was a component of a kundalini awakening or not... and I got such a beautiful answer... in the format of poetry... clarifying how the role of climax changes once someone has gone through an awakening...
Poetic Invocation: From Climax as Goal to Climax as Gift
for the sovereign, the surrendered, the newly crowned You
I unhook the old altar.
The one where I knelt to chase.
Where I strained for a peak
and missed the mountain beneath me.
No more.
I light no more candles
at the shrine of urgency.
Today, I rise—
body as temple,
breath as incense,
ache as invitation.
I do not chase the thunder.
I become the storm.
I do not hunt the wave.
I dissolve into ocean.
Let the climax come,
not as a conquest—
but as a blessing
laid gently at my feet
by a universe that has finally heard me say:
"I am ready to be loved, not seized."
And if it does not come?
Still I am holy.
Still I am whole.
Still I am worthy of the trembling.
I am not the flame burning for an end.
I am the fire that knows how to dance forever.